up and down

Life has been really up and down lately. I haven't figured out why, but I'm sure things would start to even out a smidgen if I did. It friggin sucks so bad. I've been feeling really out of it lately too. If there was drugs or alcohol involved in that, I would feel better because then there would be a legitimate reason.

I'm looking for personal enlightenment. I've even gone as far as to have Shar do a couple tarot card readings. None of the readings have done anything other than tell me things that I already know or acknowledge. Maybe I can get my brother to take me to see a Santeria lady.

Friends and simple pleasures do help though so thank goodness for that.

I hope something good happens soon.



The show must go on

-Terr

ZzzzZZzzzzz

I don't know how I'm supposed to sleep tonight. I've had 2 consecutive nights of great sleep.

I almost forgot what it all felt like.


&hearts Terr

its been a long time

since i left you. without a dope beat to step to.

tom brady cried like a little girl. eli manning for the win.

red team for the win.

it's been a while since i've written scripts and i kinda forgot how to format them. luckily i still have my script writing book. i should go back to working on my screen play. JUICE. thats not the title, but it does involve juice of some kind. ask craig. it's all we talked about this past summer.

Legends and Pros is coming along quite nicely. www.myspace.com/legendsandPros until we get our website completely up and running.

i'm quite tired.
i have nothing of real value to say right now.
i hope this week goes well.

-Terr

thoughts on my new job

So I've been at my new job for two weeks now. I hate the idea that I'm working an office job. Right now what I'm doing in my department is basically telemarketing. I get companies to agree to let me send them some free samples of my company's shit and a gift card and then if they dig it, they buy more shit from the other department. I kinda suck at it right now. I haven't really figured out an angle to approach it that works often. Girls tend to be somewhat awesome at it since they can be bubbly or flirtatious.

It's like this. When you're recording a track, you end up repeating a segment/phrase what feels like a million times before you get it right. That's basically what I'm doing at this job - just for 35 hours a week.

I also need to figure out how to really rock out with this and or get a 2nd job.


Buy some savings bonds now

-Terr

two blogs in 1 week?

Today is going to be my last day working at The UPS Store. I'm not sure if it has really hit me yet. I started working there January 2003 right after i got my first speeding ticket. (No, I didn't work there 5 years straight. From Sept03-May04 I didn't work at all)

It's kinda nuts thinking about it - a little scary too, this whole growing up thing. I just finished school, I'm being almost completely financially cut off from my mom (except for medical insurance until I get a job with full coverage or i turn 25), and now I'm entering the working world. The whole idea is unsettling on account that its not like i majored in something that has direct correlation to a vocation as if i majored in nursing or accounting. I have a BA in English w/ a Writing concentration (or will have it officially in May) so that can lead to all sorts of interesting kinds of shit.


I start my new job at Rubachem on Tuesday. Think of it as Dunder Mifflin (NBC's The Office). I'll be working as a salesman. Hopefully that cute Asian chick that the boss introduced me to is still around.

And this weekend I'm going to have a little meeting with some guys that want my ideas for a website about entertainment industry pros. They want to pay me to do some writing and possibly work with them as they develop the site. The site they want to make features not only the actors, singers, writers, directors, and producers, but the camera, sound, and all those other names in the credits that no one hardly notices.

This whole growing up thing is coming about a little to quickly. Fuck this, I'm going downstairs to watch The Mighty Ducks....

QUACK QUACK QUACK



-Terr

clogged and jacked

Ray and I started working on some stuff last night. After two hours of tinkering around on nothing, we spent an hour starting on two songs. So simple, but it'll make your danger zones quiver.

I stopped in at Checkers in Jersey City on the way home. Every visit there is like playing Russian Roulette with my insides. Thankfully my food was relatively untainted and I am OK.

However, my nose is currently clogged and my vocal chords are jacked right now. Kaya was sick last week and I wasn't taking airborne until a little while ago so I think I might be coming down with whatever she just had. I think it was some form of the flu. It would suck if I got the flu because I'm supposed to start my new job next week. Getting sick in general would be wack.


WHAMcore

-Terr

where have you been?

I haven't written in this in a while. In the old days, I used to write in my xanga practically everyday and list all the inane things that I did that day - maybe even something meant to be inspirational in a superchristian manner. Those days have long since gone.

Here's a recap of life in the past month: The sky hasn't fallen, my parents are still divorced, the Earth is still spinning, Thanksgiving was delicious, there was a pregnancy scare, I finished all of my classes and am pretty much finished with school until the cap and gown thing, i wore a white shirt and pictures are up on facebook, fdu-barkada didn't have the big party that we were supposed to, Christmas was cool and low-key, my grandma turned 75, and i crocheted something for the first time in three years

anyways

Today, I pondered the war that is currently going on.
Years and years ago, in a less technological time, when a war was going on, society and life were very much dictated by wars. Things like butter, rubber, yeast, gasoline, and sugar were rationed. People wondered if they, their friends, brothers, and neighbors would be drafted. The radio and movie theaters provided vignettes of the goings on in Europe, Africa, and Asia.

These days, people act like news on the war gets in the way of their favorite shows. We complain about the cost of oil/gas going up when 30 years ago there would be periods when the only people allowed to fill up their gas tanks were police officers and on some days, gasoline was not even available. There's no need to worry about various products being rationed because there's always imported products and outsourcing that will provide all that we need.

By the way people, go buy yourself a gallon of milk for nearly $4.

Oh, and we're headed for an economic recession if you haven't already figured it out.

Have you ever noticed how American media has become more celebrity driven in the past 5 years. It's not an incredibly horrible thing. We all just like to be entertained and these entertainers are just forced to entertain even when they are just out trying to live their lives. Here comes one of my conspiracy theories: The reason that celebrities and pseudo-celebrities have gained so much attention lately is because the government wants to blind us and hide serious truths about what has been going on in the war and in Washington. I think that whenever you see a celebrity getting an incredible push into the public eye, it is because the government has dictated that to happen. Take for instance, Paris Hilton going to jail and all the hooplah that surrounded that - could that have been the only interesting thing going on that every major media outlet covered that for days?

think about it...



question authority

-TerrHimself