still searching...

...for a lot of things previously mentioned.

As far as my job goes. It's ok. I like to think that I'm doing better and that now I'm only half-crappy at it. I've found some things that work for me, but for the most part it feels like gambling in that sometimes you just get dealt really shitty hands. I'm sure its not exactly that way since people have found their own systems and what work well for them.
It's still my 1st sales job. I still don't like thinking that I'm in an office because I switched out of being a marketing major to avoid offices and cubicles. The atmosphere is more laid back than my last office job (2002) and I don't have to get super dressed up so thats a plus. At least when I interned at the menswear company they gave me free clothes regularly because I wore the same size as the mannequins and sometimes showroom models flake out and don't show up.

My company threw me a curve ball last week and I just happen to suck at batting. It's wacksauce and super frustrating. I have to look into other financial options, because these bills are paying going to go away.

With complete honesty, life kinda sucks right now.
But the show must go on and the rest of the world doesn't care about how much life sucks for you unless you can turn that an awesome song, book, or movie.


I miss simplicity. Bruce Lee said something along the lines of the shortest distance between two places is the simplest. And that "simplicity is brilliance."

-Terr